Good (?) Friday

Having celebrated (?) Maundy Thursday last night for the first time, I feel grim today. Today is a day of waiting. Grim, dark waiting. Of sub-conciously walking the streets to Golgotha. Who am I in the drama? There is only One who is good. Others are evil or worse, neutral. Am I one of the Jews who feel betrayed by this king who is no King and will save neither himself nor me? Am I hiding and denying my relationship to him in order to save myself? How do I live this out today?

Tomorrow will also be waiting. But I think my mood will be lighter and more hopeful.